I am not sure about “the need to build knowledge” but i am liking the idea of communities of specific interest and expertise with the idea anyone can go discuss things with experts.

Welcome to professional adulthood.

I wish i had some more comforting advice but the best i can do is wish you good luck. You will need it.

Just know that no matter how long it takes it is saying nothing of you value! You are a valid and valuable person.

“I read somewhere online” that big luxury tents have been propping up owned by organizations that basically sell the entire experience as a package to rich people.