contradictions

Like what

What is truth and how do you know that?

Something tells me you are doing armchair exegesis. Give me an example.

I went to a Romanian Holy Unction service and it was beautiful.

If God exist then why bad thing happen?

The Christian paradigm answers this.

I did edit to say I was a Christian because I realized that would probably make things clearer.

The argumentation for the Christian god goes beyond what I posted here but builds on the concept. No offense taken.

Explain what you think I mean by God.

I believe in God because I don’t believe knowledge is possible without a transcendent being. (e.g. the impossibility of the contrary) Otherwise you are dealing with infinite regress or axiomatic circularity. Materialism breaks down with origin theories. Metaphysics aren’t substantial yet exist. Math and logic aren’t descriptors of the world but integral to how the world is structured. The Orthodox view is that these principles are a reflection of the divine mind.

(I am an Orthodox Christian)

Do you believe that to be true?

In my case yes 😁

AA is a great program and is basically secularized Christianity. Two great religious books that talk about the program from a more explicitly religious perspective are “Breathing Underwater” (Catholic) and “Steps of a Transformation” (Orthodox). Even with your agnostic perspective I think you would find them enlightening.

That’s essentially the TAG argument.